From a young age, I felt a deep connection to God as a loving presence that permeated everything around me and within me. At three years old, I was puzzled by why others didn’t see this divine presence as I did. Alongside this connection, I began exploring my sexuality early, but shame soon followed. My curiosity about my body was something I had to hide, and for over 30 years, my sexuality remained in the shadows.

With my father absent from my life and a far from healthy family dynamic at home - I was lost and struggled deeply with feeling unworthy. I only felt at ease exploring my desires when intoxicated. In my late twenties, I started reconnecting with my spiritual path through plant medicine, but with so many other parts of myself to work on - I neglected my sexuality, convincing myself it wasn’t important anymore. I focused on healing attachment wounds, communication, triggers, emotional intelligence and finding a community where I felt like I truly belonged. As I found myself, I found my people and for the first time felt like I wasn’t on the outside looking in.

In 2020 just before the world shut down, I left my cocktailing career  in Las Vegas and got rid of my belongings to travel around the world and  figure out what I actually wanted to do with my life. With the pandemic shutting down most international travel, this led me to buying a camper van and spending the next 2+ years living nomadically around the US and Mexico. As my journey home to myself deepened through retreats, studies and first hand experience , I naturally began to help others through the hurdles I had just overcome.

 I started hosting workshops and retreats in late 2020 and the joy and fulfillment I receive from bringing together a group of humans to connect, play, remember and love has filled my heart ever since. Although my specific offerings have changed and grown with me over the years, they have always shared a common thread of Connection - whether it be to each other, the earth, to Self, or to Spirit - it is the work of my Soul and I could never imagine doing anything else. 

As my inner work deepened, I eventually came back to my sexuality, realizing it was the missing piece in my healing and in my offerings. I spent three transformative years confronting my fears and integrating my sexuality into my life. The death of my older sister two years ago brought profound changes, taking me into my darkness, but also expanding my capacity for light. The simultaneous reclamation of my sexuality and confronting of death became intertwined, deepening both my pleasure and my grief. My dad also re-entered into my life during this time and deep healing with the masculine within me and around me took place simultaneously. 

Now, I stand here more whole than I have ever been — embracing all parts of myself, grounded in my body, harmonized in my mind, and centered in my heart, at least most of the time ;)  My journey is one of both light and shadow, and through it, I’ve cultivated a deep, rich, and enlivened experience of life, embarrassing and embodying all that I am and all this is.